Some days I have no idea what I’m doing, and that is okay.
What a great way to start a post, er not. I had actually already written and edited another post for today around 20 times, but it just wasn’t working for me. If you write posts at one in the morning, you get something that sounds like it was written at one in the morning–all over the place and kind of weird.
I was trying to write something inspirational and all that jazz, but it turned into a huge mess just one whole paragraph in (and it was over 700 words…). After hitting the backspace bar for what seemed like an eternity, I now write to you with absolutely no plan or agenda and I have come to terms with the fact that it is okay.
I first learned how to “fake it till you make it” from my 7th grade teacher. She had a whole lot of sass and spoke her mind whenever she felt like it which made me both terrified and ecstatic to be in her class. I have been using her methodology for years and especially since I got back to Texas over a month ago because I have had absolutely no idea what I am doing. Whether that is with my major or just life in general, I have felt extremely lost and pulled in a thousand different directions which has not been a pretty sight in the least.
After spending the first part of my summer worrying exactly what I was doing with my life and how I wasn’t making any of the right decisions, etc. etc. I found that I really only have two options. I can either a) worry and make things a thousand times worse or b) put on my big girl panties and get over it–time will continue on and everything will be okay. More or less there is nothing I can do about half of the things I was concerned about and either way life is just too dang short anyway.
My advice to anyone in the same situation whether you are going through a tough transition or just trying to figure out what direction your life is taking as a whole: don’t fret. In the words of my momma, take a chill pill–don’t rush into anything without taking a good hard look and praying first.
Because you’ve got two options and, personally, the second one looks pretty good to me.
I promise I will have some more content up soon, but with an exam tomorrow it just wasn’t happening. I hope you all had an awesome hump day and I will talk to you again soon.